5:11

It's late. I've just come back from a walk. I had a coffee. I smoked 3 cigarettes. I came to a conclusion: This has got to stop!!!

When I started this blog, the intent was for it to act as a log of my return to wellbeing, hence the title Achieving Personal Wellness. I've not done so well to date but I'm not going to beat myself up about it.

Instead, I'm resolving to start a new hobby: Me.

I've just watched the newest Nike Just Do It Human Chain ad. What a brilliant spot. "Everybody gets knocked down. How quick are you gonna get up?"

I'm posting a picture here. This is me at 19. Starting off-guard for Westminster. At the peak of my fitness. That was 19 years ago.

Starting today, I am going to eat better. I am going to start working out. I am going to quit smoking (not today but the plan begins today.) I am going to take more interest in being healthy.

I've found it becomes very easy to fly on autopilot. To just turn off and let negative emotions take over - at least for me. Perhaps I'm a natural pessimist but I think I've also gotten into a state of feeling sorry for myself instead of looking at things more objectively.

I'm a smart, funny, attractive individual with a lot to offer. I get lazy and complacent from time-to-time and right now things aren't as good as they could be. So I need to start addressing my life in the areas that I can make a difference.

I need to go back to my list of 101 key ingredients to make my life better. I need to stop whining. I need to start counting on myself for happiness rather than asking others to provide it for me.

I will. I can. Just do it!